Playing Poker Wasted... the Sunday $750K on FullTilt... another MATH / another bubble... a quick Mookie exit, and attempting to repeat the Dookie!

No post since last week. Lots to catch up on...

So last Friday night... went to a wedding in downtown Tacoma. LAME event all around, as I felt entirely out of place at the celebration. (It was a colleague's wedding, and I had nothing in common with any of the small group attending.) But, it was an open bar, so I stayed long enough to catch quite the buzz, and offend a few women. Anyway, made it home just before midnight and had been thinking about poker all night, so got online for some SnG play. BIG MISTAKE! ...
I was so excited to get my laptop on for some poker, I didn't even consider the fact that maybe I was drunk, and just maybe I shouldn't be playing cards!?! I wasn't even thinking about anything but playing the game I love, and didn't even consider NOT playing. Being home alone with an hour or two to kill, it was an AUTOMATIC conclusion that I was playing poker. ... I plan for the decision 'to play or not to play' to always be a conscience one from now on! ...
I compounded the EFFup, and registered into FOUR $20 SnGs of various sizes, (a 6seater, 2-9seaters, and a 45.) This $88 committment all at once is a bit above my bankroll when my game's in top form. It's ridiculously dumb when I'm at all out of my element, as I was completely on Friday night. I was so uncomfortable, it was funny: I couldn't get a single read... Multi-tabling was all of a sudden WAY faster and harder than ever before... I kept finding myself rationalizing dumb calls... making ignorant moves at big pots... over-valuing hands pre-flop... etc... It was just altogether lame. I was simply over matched at all four tables. given my lack of attention span in a drunken state. And sure enough, didn't even come close to cashing in any one of the four games, as deserved.
As hard as it may be to believe, I swear, I managed to have an epiphany while hammered! Okay, so it's not hard to believe considering "DON'T PLAY POKER DRUNK" isn't exactly an amazingly insightful revelation. But still, lesson learned nonetheless. Yes, this should be common sense, but it took my experience Friday night for me to REALLY realize I cannot afford to make such a dumb mistake again. I have NEVER felt so uncomfortable playing poker before, I just knew I was going to lose. ...
I plan for the decision to play or not to play to always be a conscience one from now on!
... anyway, ...
Played the FullTilt Sunday $200+$15 $750k guarantee tournament... (WARNING: bad beat story coming...) ... managed to play great for the first 3 hours and had a healthy stack with 1200 of the the original 4,000 remaining (top 500 some cashing,) when:
I look down at AA in the small blind. ... UTG MIN-raises... gets THREE callers before the button re-raises substantially... I realize there's so much action ahead of me that I have to try to get SOME people to fold, so holding bullets, I push my whole (significant) stack; a large over bet of the pot. ... BB folds. ... The UTG player (who is table chipleader, was playing uber-aggressive, and whom I had a great read on) INSTA-calls for 80% of his stack... 3 folders and the button goes into the tank for awhile before calling for his whole stack. ... Cards are flipped over, and it's: my AA vs. UTG's KK vs. button's AA. ... And of course, K on the flop and I'm drawing dead! F***!!! F***!!! I lose my top 100 stack DEEP in a big money MTT when holding AA all in pre... F***!!! I don't know why I play this stupid game.
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Played the MATH the next night and F***ING bubbled! 4th place for $0 when my AKo couldn't improve vs. GCox's 99. SECOND Bloggerment bubble in under one week, as I JUST missed the cash in the Mookie last week as well. F***!!! After donkin' off the majority of my bankroll drunk, then getting sucked out on from a possible decent score, I managed to get my hopes up to cash in another blogger event and recover some bankroll... just to EFFING BUBBLE!!! F***!!!!! I don't know why I play this stupid game.
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Just got knocked out of this week's Mookie on a REALLY bad play, SUPER early (vs. Donkey Puncher.) My Q9 vs. QQ all in on board of Q952. A very demoralizing hand, drawing DEAD when the money got in. I suck! REALLY poorly played as there was NO reason for me to ever think I was ahead in the hand. I suck! I don't know why I play this stupid game.
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Gonna try to repeat as winner of the Dookie for a little redemption. I'm going to go google "Stud hi/lo." ...

...I'm a talkin' donkey!
~RaisingCayne