Friday!!!

Again, a long while between posts. I suppose I haven't had too much to say of late. Well, no, that's never true... I guess I don't have any excuse...

On the poker front: I feel I've been playing like a complete donkey so far in the BBT2 events, (as illustrated by the leaderboard!) Haven't even came close to doing anything in these events yet. Donked my way out of the Riverchasers last night as a JackAce! (Yes, I've been playing THAT bad!) But it's not as if I'm even considering the possibility of stopping, as I'm sure I'll continue to donate for the remaining weeks of the contest. I'm dead money! Congrats to Lucko and friends, and everyone else winning in the events thus far! I'm green with envy! Maybe I'll have to try this write-your-way-into-the-TOC thing, (sorry for some reason I can't link to it from work,) as winning a TOC seat via a poker win seems like a longshot for me now... not that I've got a chance to win with the fiction either, but I digress.

While I've been feeling uncomfortable thus far in the BBT2 events, my other MTT play has been consistently decent, albeit without the corresponding positive results. I keep making it deep in small buy-in tourneys, and getting my chips in good at crunch time, but haven't had a final table to show for it in a long time! It's getting frustrating!

And while I'm busy complaining, I've got a bone to pick with online poker... (and possibly specifically Full Tilt)...
...Last night I'm in a $10+1 90-seat Deepstack SnG tourney... 22 remaining, 18 pay out... holding AA in EP with a nice stack I raise it up... folds around to the button who goes all-in with a tiny stack... the small blind (with a HUGE stack) goes into the tank before just calling... BB folds... and comes to me where I'm given the choice to call a tiny amount more or fold... ONLY!???? WTF??? Why wasn't I given the chance to re-pop and get the SB to fold!???? So I reluctantly just call... flop comes 963 paint... SB min-bets into dry pot, I re-pop... he jams... I make a DONKEY call of my whole stack just to see his set of 9s, and I'm out short of the cash!
I do NOT need to be told how dumb my all in call was on the flop... but I sure am curious as to ANY thoughts why I wasn't given the chance to re-re-raise pre???!!! I host home games all the time, and never limit the amount of re-raising allowed to less than 4 or 5 times. WTF? This was just a raise, a re-raise all-in, and a call... why wasn't I given the option to raise again?!!! Made me go to bed tilted last night! Poker is rigged.

Onto personal news: I went to an awesome Halloween party last weekend! I was in the reverend-with-a-woody costume, (a pastor's penis is funny.) Had an absolute blast getting hammered with old friends. I usually host a wild costume party at my place every Halloween, but this year I had a good friend of mine on house arrest, and he requested the responsibility of hosting at his place given the dilemma. It was a great time! Lots of fun, lots of sexy costumes, lots of drugs & alcohol... Good times were had by all.

And onto even more personal news, (and I'm going to apologize in advance for my purposeful vagueness, as the following ambiguities are all intentional...), I think I damn near fell in love last weekend! Haven't felt anything like this in years, and can't stop thinking about this one gal. I can't go into ANY details, as the whole thing is very "90210," but I thought I'd at least mention where my head's been at lately.

I'm a very content single man, and have been happy enough being single the last few years, never imagining that I'd be happier with another's constant companionship. I've often even found myself questioning others' apparent perpetual search for a partner, as it confuses the hell out of me how anyone would ever choose to be with someone just 'cause they believe it beats the alternative. But, as content as I have been with being single, I know I'd be a thousand times happier with this person in my life. I'm completely smitten! I can't get her out of my head. She's incredibly beautiful, smart, funny, cool, witty, fun,... I could write a novel on how she amazes me. So, I better stop here before I do.

Before anyone asks, there is NO future with her... it's an unfortunate impossibility... I've gotta just get over her. (Long story, please pardon the lack of details.) But as sad as I am coming to grips with the fact that her and I will never be together, I could still never hold any regrets! The passionate feelings I've had over the last week, are worth ANY amount of heartache. Let me explain a little... ever since my college sweetheart left me over five years ago, (07/30/02, but who's counting,) I have never imagined feeling so much passion for another person again. That has ALL changed after the last week! In fact, I even ran into the ex at the party Saturday... and didn't feel a thing! It's like a weight has been lifted! A relationship epiphany of sorts. It's been nice.

Anyway... Onto another subject... (as that was GHEY) ... Since I've received a few recent inquiries about it, I have to post the news that unfortunately I will NOT be attending the Winter Poker Blogger Gathering in Vegas in December this year! :-( I would've LOVED to attend, but didn't have the means to justify the trip. I'm throwing a five-day Vegas bachelor party for my best friend in March (14th-18th) and just couldn't find it financially feasible to go down there twice in four months. Embarrassing as it is to admit, I just couldn't afford it! :-( Hopefully next time.

This is turning into quite the lengthy post, but I'm not quite done ranting yet. ...

So my Mom's in town visiting from San Diego, (to get away from the wildfires for one.) And my roommate Joshua, was supposed to be out of town on business all week, but his trip got cancelled at the last minute. So... I'm sleeping on an airbed in my living room, while Ma has my room... and I'm carpooling with Joshua everyday so she could use my car. ... And my car fucking breaks down on her yesterday! I leave work at 2 yesterday to come to her aid. I pick her up, take her home, and limp my car to my mechanic's. And after 24 hours at the shop he still can't figure out what's going on even after the fucking diagnostic!? I've got an '02 Nissan Sentra SE-R V-Spec Edition, with a lot of custom work done to it, and the throttle isn't responding. Stupid funky cars don't have a throttle cable or something simple, but a whole electronic throttle assembly thingamajig. It appears evident the whole stupid unit needs replaced, rather than one little part. I'm expecting a call from the shop any minute with a HUGE estimate for repair costs.! CapitalOne here I come...

That's enough random rambling for one Friday afternoon I suppose! I notice I was tagged by Astin with this meme thing... I'll get to it this weekend. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!
~RaisingCayne